exciting news

To my complete and utter surprise chivalry is not dead; there are modern day gentlemen who were raised correctly alive. As shocking as it may be I have encountered someone who is truly as considerate as any casanova can falsely play to be. Now though I may keep more descriptive details as to whom this may be secret, the sheer fact that he is capable of changing my opinion is remarkable. 

Nevertheless, when I think of the idea of chivalry I'd rather envision a John Cushak character than a knight on a horse. Even though I LOVE the thought that the contrary vision makes me into a princess, I hate the idea of being saved by a handsome man is my reward as a woman. Rather, I have been swept off my feet by kindness, compassion, and attraction. 

loyalty

The concept of loyalty has always been an important aspect of my life. Between loyalty to family and friends but to all loved ones. But what exactly does it mean to be loyal? I suppose it depends upon how you would look at it. There is a sense that someone is loyal or faithful to a partner which is separate from being faithful to a friend. For a partner or significant other loyalty is expected yet is to be cherished as if a privilege. There are also two different ways to be loyal to someone you love or care for emotionally and physically. Physically is among the easiest to control one's loyalty to the other and only those who are weak give in to these temptations. Emotionally is much different and takes much longer to hurt your partner. You see to be emotionally loyal to a partner means to me at least to be honest, to speak with conviction, and to selfless in thinking.
As far as being loyal to friends, I have found myself surrounded by it, It's not about just taking sides anymore in fights like we did in high school. Loyalty or allegiance for each other runs deeper. When we face tougher inner struggles and harsher external environments we look to our friends to stand by us loving every moment of who we are regardless of what we are doing.
  But when is being loyal a bad thing? I have found in myself at least that it has come back to bite me. My loyalty runs so deep it is devotion in many cases. As I've said though before I'd rather live the way I do and dive into each emotion, interaction, and experience I have open heartedly than guarded. Some people may see this as naivete towards life and people but to me I'm free. What I have learned though is that not everyone deserves the chances I am willing to give. Loyalty isn't something that should be given. I thank the person who I know will be reading this for teaching me that fact. I hope to give my devotion and heart to someone who deserves it soon.

Father's Day

To all the Dads in the world happy Father's day. I am a very huge daddy's girl, and know he is an avid reader of this (as well as all my other) social networking sites and felt it was only appropriate to express my love and gratitude towards him. Thank you dad for all you have done. You are my saving grace and guiding light. Without you I would have been gone years ago, or still lost today. You have taught me the skills I will need in life to become a wonderful mother, hardworking employee, loyal friend, and most importantly a respectable woman. I hope to someday be the parent you have been to me and clair. I hope you know and can feel the gratitude we have for all the sacrifices you have made for us. We see how hard you work and I admire your selflessness for this family. I love you with all my heart daddy and as I sit here writing this my eyes are welling because I don't think this message truly conveys all the thanks I have for you. Just know that everything you do doesn't go unnoticed. You have taught me the value of hard work, how to be understanding, the reason to share, how to laugh, how to outsmart, the value of family, but most importantly how to love.
          
       I would like to take this time to also say happy father's day to my grandfather. Other than my own dad, this man is the biggest gentlemen with the kindest heart and best stories. I love you grandpa thank you for everything you have given dad and have passed on to me. You are my hero.
       To all the other fathers out there that have also been there for me I appreciate it as well. Though they may not see this as my own dad will I hope they know they too deserve recognition for all they have done.


I love you daddy! I hope the man I marry is half the man you are.